Just updating things again, for no reason I guess.
It's obvious by now after all of my inactivity, but I might as well say that I am going to leave Deviant Art. Ocassionally I come on to accept things into groups I am apart of but from now on that'll be it. This site holds nothing for me anymore, and I don't really care for it.
The reason really is I guess is because this summer I discovered something. I discovered a lot of things. I learned that I try so hard to be a hero. That I take the people close to me and take their problems and them affect me to the point that it's as if I'm being hurt along with them. I realized that my life isn't peachy; I have real problems too. I have real issues that I've been putting onto a shelf for almost four years and refusing to acknowledge, even though I'm only cheating myself. So I changed that. I had to make some harsh decisions, but it needed to be done. Do I feel good about all of them? No. Some of them I feel terrible about, but it had to happen. This summer I grew close to people who brought out something in me I never knew was there. I gained a loving and supportive boyfriend who helps bring out the best in me, and reminds me that I can survive through anything. Even with all the moments I've wanted to quit, I've found that even friends I can't see all the time or I haven't seen much in a while are still there to help me when I need them, and vice versa. This summer has been a hell, a gift, and an eyeopener. I'll never forget it.
I've recently gotten a job that has been a great experience so far, even despite all the hours I put in. My co-workers are so kind and helpful, and they seem to truly enjoy me when I'm there. I've even met someone from my old old school that I haven't seen in YEARS, and we get along great. I've found that I've become more social and less fearful, and I can speak my mind without fear. I can control what I say, and not offend people as much as I used too, and I've learned to control the bitch inside of me. I'm really happy.
College is going to be a wonderful experience. I've already made friends and found a few old ones. I can't wait to see what else it brings me.